Sunday, April 24, 2005

crazy.sexy.fool. *lolz*

it's been a hell of a week. a roller coaster full of emotions.things havent been back to normal and that sucks! hihi!
sorry guys,this is mah way of releasing my angst! whatever! :) i look and feel terrible. i cant think straight. i couldnt eat, and worst, i couldnt sleep. is that a sign of depression?!cos i really think im fallin into that trap. couldnt even bear to look at myself in the mirror coz i wouldnt like what i see. if im not feeling crappy as i am,i would have been happy seeing a "curvy" me.BUT, if u find urself not feeling sexy in your already size 24 jeans coz it's too loose for you,you'd rather frown. u get what i mean?! ok..look at this:

product of depression!:)
there,i had to mess that up a bit coz i really looked terrible.feeling ko sumobra ng kapayatan ko. yuck!! para akong walis tingting. arghh!! one of mah frustrations pa,gusto ko mag-beach.my goodness. summer's almost over before i knew it.i really really wana go to puerto or bora.im craving for it for like forever! hehe! partly because i wanna forget my problems and why my life's twisted lately.i wanna get away from it all na,kc feeling ko i'll go crazy if things remained this way.kaso, tlgang it's just not the right time eh..ayaw talaga ko pagbigyan. i guess i just have to sacrifice a bit more. *sigh*
for the longest time,i've been thinking how's it like to smile again. how's it like to be happy.
i just really feel incomplete.
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