Sunday, September 18, 2005

*nEw cHaPteRs..diFfEreNt ePisOdEs..*


~wEeKeNd paYdaY! wOohOo!~
sept.17,2005;saturday

last week's the craziest. hehe!! kiddin'! it's been a nice week , all because of the payday!!!=) work-slash-training is ok, more free time than discussion. so i havent felt sleepy even if i only have few hours of sleep. im enjoyin' the company of my wavemates-slash-new found friends!=) anyway, for the last couple of days, well, since we had our pay, it's been our after-work habit to have breakfast at mcdo! it used to be just me, rizza & sheila but then dumami na kme! hehe! last friday, we had dinner at gerry's grill in ATC. as usual, im late again! blame it on morning's heavy traffic plus non-stop rain,i arrived home at almost 12 & have few hours of sleep! so there, i only have few pictures but i had the best tym of my life! hehe!

*sigh* i still couldnt believe im workin', i even cant believe that im holdin' in my hands now my pay! i know, im bein' sentimental! cant help it, it's my first real job! im soo soo blessed meeting wonderful people(my wavemates), a nice job, what more could i possibly ask for?! hmmm... a love life!hehe!=) whatever!=)

gotta boUnce!=)




~..hOpe this is nOt a drEaM..~
sep.12,2005;monday

di ako mkatulog! waaah!!! addict sa internet kc! waaah!!!

damn,i miss HIM!!!
oi,paramdam ka...
u're so close, but still a world away! *sigh*
ang mga taong may TAMA nga tlga oh..
lumilipad ang utak..


imagine.."DISCLOSURE" lng di ko pa nsagot knina,patay na nman ako sa consequence mmya! wala akong kadala-dala! sayaw na nman cguro toh!

sna nman hindi ako nananaginip...pls...

song of mymp:

tlga nman..nkakabighani..
tlga nman..nkakagulat..
nkapagtataka,pagkat nsa isip..
nkakapanghinayang,sna maulit..

*tlga nman, nkakabigo
tlga nman, nkakalungkot!

KUNG KELAN PA MALAPIT NANG MAHULOG ANG LOOB..
SAKA KA LUMISAN SA AKING PAGTULOG..

panaginip, nkakabaliw..
nkikita nga, di nman ntatanaw!
talaga nmang hanggang doon na lang
ang pag-ibig na sana'y alay sayo'y...
talaga namang di na matutuloy! =(

emo na nman jho! tama na!=)
hirap ma-in luv..lalo pa kung hindi mo alam kung mahal ka ba nia..hehe! hinay hinay lang jho! =)
haaay..sna, di tlga ako nananaginip! sna totoo to! sna msabi mong gusto mo din ako..sna,hndi lang ako ang nkakaramdam nito! sna hindi ka panaginip! =)




++eNdingS & bEginNinGs++
sept.6,2005;tuesday

Equifax wave 7 with our trainer Mac
cant believe it's our last day of CCT. *sob* =)

we got a lot of free time. the good thing was our celebration, we ordered pizza & chicken. some brought along food like goldiluck's buttered puto and macaroons *yummy* and buko pie as well. then we took pictures..haha!! lots of pictures. we had our class picture with mac too..=) the good news is that we had the 10pm to 6am shift for PST. haha,lucky us!=)

after our training, mishy & i went to johnmil at malate. we waited for kim there & of course kantahan to the max! dami ngang tao, may nagcelebrate kc ng birthday dun. hayy, totoy bibo ever! ang laswa!=) pero basta super enjoy. funny thing is that,somebody asked for my number, pampam! kim saved me,big tym!=) then we went home na! haaaayy! cyempre i wasnt able to sleep agad. went online pa! =) i slept at around 7:30. i dont know, i just passed out at here in the living room. the moment my back touched the sofa, Zzzzz's! =)

sept.8,2005;thursday

it's almost 8 in the morning. just got home at around 7:15. haha..it's our first day of PST training today,oops make that last night.. cos our shift started at 10 in the evening then ended at 6 am today. not yet sleepy so went online. the 1st day of training's fine. we got nothing much to do. most of the tym kwentuhan lang w/ mishy & rizza..our trainer meg discussed the house rules. i had lunch w/dia, meddie and marie. we went to the floor, kwentuhan with the pioneer batch (wave1), tnignan lang nmen kung ano gngawa nila. hehe! they're nice nman! then for all we know, uwian na!=)

soo,.,i gotta catch some Zzzz's! a bit sleepy already!=)

ciao!




~wHen iT rAinS, it pOuRs!~
sept.5,2005;monday

im soooo happy!!! i passed the CCT training. *whew* before Mac,our trainer, announced the result, i was really nervous, actually all of us are nervous. you could feel the tension in the room. Mac explained that if all of us passed, she'd announced it right then and there, BUT if one or more failed, she would have to do it one by one. In our case, she said that.. she would have to do it one by one. So the tension grew stronger only for Mac to announce that she was just kidding and all of us made it! i dont know why but that moment, i was really teary-eyed! seconds later i was crying, haha..maybe because of relief, in plain words just tears of joy! i was even happier when i got my scorecard, cos all the while i was thinking that im not doing good in the training but turned out i got a fairly high mark of 92.50%! i cant believe that our group have only one day left for CCT at makati. *sob* i'll surely miss that insular building, and those crazy elevators! haha! i'll miss our trainer, Mac, cos she's soo nice & funny! i do hope our trainer at PST would be as nice & funny as her. i've never been bored all throughout the training cos of her. i've enjoyed the training soo much i'm really gonna miss it like hell..=c i'll miss our room (super lamig! *shiver*); the pantry; the vendo machine, that has lots of tofiluk & junk foods, really took care of our grumbling stomach! and the free COFFEE,,weeeh!! im not gonna miss that cos for sure there's free coffee at Alabang also! *wink* anyway, i dont wanna get mushy (as if!), i'm just soo happy.. truly..when it rains,it pours! i just feel soo blessed! thanks God, i gave it all back to you!=)

excited for the PST!!!*yipeeh*

ta-ta for now!=)



~sTrOngEr!~
august 29, 2005 ; monday

not another monday. 2nd week of CCT. my day started out just fine. my best friend, mishy, made me wait for an hour at las piñas' city hall. only to find out that there's no office today because it's a goddamn holiday! it's was uber hot & there i was, waiting, thinking, mumbling to myself where she was. then when she finally arrived, we headed to paseo, grab a bite @ mcdonald's & off to work we go.=) it sounded boring. well that's because i wasnt tellin' you yet about the exciting part. since we're on our 2nd week of training we had our 1st OPE (oral proficiency exam). it was easy actually. you pick a card, you think about the question for 3 minutes & you answer for 3 minutes as well. what i got is not actually a question. it goes like: say something about a line of your favorite movie. i was thinking of that famous line "i dont wanna be adored. i wanna be loved." but then i opted not to choose that. for whatsoever reasons i dont know. what i remember was actually not a line from the same movie, if only, but it was actually written by jennifer love. it's something like: in a relationship there's always someone who loves more than the other. "oh God, i wish it wasn't me". after everything i've been through, explaining that line in front is easy. it's like im just tellin a story, my story. judging from the reaction of my co-trainees, i felt like they have learned a thing or two from what i've shared with them. and it's really a nice feeling, to get a reaction like that. grace even told me that she was teary-eyed, she almost cried. hearing that made me think that i must have been really strong to be able to overcome that. hihi!=) im so proud of myself!

soooo, i dont wna make a big deal out of it, im just satisfied w/ how i did in the OPE but i knew i could have done even better. i was kinda distracted cos of their reactions. hehe! but it's ok! All's well that ends well. ta-ta!=)




~thank God its Friday!!~
aug.27,2005;saturday

Thank God it's Friday!!! ayoko na po mag-english ha..give me a break!=) eh ayun,ok nman! training as usual! ok nga kc ang haba ng time nmen para magreview bago magquiz! hehe! kso ang lola mo,ewan ko ba..lumilipad ata ang utak! sabay dinaldal pa ni mishy, ayun bagsak! di ko nman dinibdib, mas knkabahan ako sa oral exam sa monday. *arrghh* tpos, ayun uwian, umuulan..wla akong balak gumimik, kso ang mgaling kong best friend na c mishy (again!) eh magaling magblack mail kya ayun larga na nman sa malate! sinundo kme ng tropa nya mlapit sa insular building. tpos kumain muna kme sa jollibee. ewan ko ba pagsakay pa lang ng car ni raymond eh wala na ata kmeng gnwa kung hindi tumawa. cmula pa lang yan ha. tpos derecho na kme sa soul degree. *inuman na!!!* sa loob ng halos apat na oras din ata un, sumakit na ang tiyan at panga ko sa kakatawa sa mga kwento ng tropa nila mishy, sa pangunguna ni kim! sobrang saya talaga! nakalimutan ko ung sinasabi kong emptiness nung kasama ko na cla. kase nman pakiramdam ko welcome na welcome ako sa kanila, na parang hindi na rin ako iba! nakalimutan kong nangungulila ako, nakalimutan kong malungkot ako. ang sarap lang talaga ng pakiramdam! haaaay!

SATURDAY:
kakagising ko lang around two p.m. sarap humilata sa kama! ang tagal ko din bago bumangon. kumain lang ako at heto nasa harap na nman ako ng computer. nagsusulat na nman. pano naman hindi ako naka-emote kagabi! hindi ko na nga naramdaman ang hilo ko sa sobrang tawa! pakiramdam ko tuloy di ako nalasing (hindi nman talaga!!) oh.ano na?! magddrama ka ba?! tang ina kase, bakit ko ba nararamdaman to! ok na ko eh..masaya nko sa life ko! nakamove on na ko sa nakaraan ko. eh bakit, i feel so empty?! para tlgang may malaking butas sa puso ko. nakakainis! nkakagago! ano pa ba hahanapin ko? may trabaho ko, madami akong nkikilalang bagong kaibigan, madami akong nakakasama... hay... cguro "siya" na lang talaga.


"*kung may kakayahan lang ang mga luha na sabihin ang mga dapat mong marining, habang buhay akong iiyak.. dahil may mga bagay na mata lang ang nakakakita at luha lang ang may kakayahang magpadama!*"




~jayceeh. crazy. fool.~
aug.25,2005;thursday

episode 1:
i h8 what i feel! i have everything i wished & prayed
for & yet there's this big HOLE inside me. this
terrible emptiness is eating me up, swallowing me
whole. is there any way i can be saved?!

fallen
episode 2:
no,i'm not fallin'!cant take the risk.i definitely
wont.there has to be some fall back.
remember a line from the movie "if only", it goes
something like..in a relationship there's always
someone who loves more..(am i right?!) well
whatever! the thing is.. "Oh God, i wish it wasn't
ME!" (taken from the movie as well.)

*shakes head*
this is bullsh*t!







~workin' is dangerous to your health!~
aug.25,2005;thursday

im tired.
im soo tired.
im soo f*ckin' tired!
i wanna stay in bed & never get up again until i want to.
for the first tym in like forever, i wanna SLEEP.
this whole training thing for my J-O-B is sucking all my energy. im totally drained.
im goin' crazy. i can hear it in my head.

"duh DUH duh. DUh duh duh.
la LA la. LA la la.
cha CHA cha. CHA cha cha."

u wont get it idiot! it's a call center thingy. especially for convergys only!=)
*arrggghhhhhhhh*

can i use my vacation leave? pretty please!=)

oh,i didnt notice i was speaking & thinking in English.
believe me,at work,i am totally a scattered brain.
(luckily,a while ago,im not!i pretty much did great!) :p

am i makin' sense at all?
whatever!

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just one more day..i cant wait til weekend!
you think its possible fo' anyone to sleep 2 whole days?
cos,i might!=)

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