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November 2004
You're a very bubbly, happy, caring person. You love to be with your friends and you love making them happy.
Your always willing to bend over backwards to help someone in need even if you dont know them.
Plus you love making new friends, which is why your always surrounded by people. Remember though sometimes you need to concentrate on your work,
you tend to not pay attention and can be rather spacey. Also remember to do things for yourself sometimes and dont let people take advantage of your nature.
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My Deadly Sins |
| Envy: 80% |
| Pride: 60% |
| Gluttony: 40% |
| Greed: 40% |
| Lust: 40% |
| Wrath: 40% |
| Sloth: 20% |
| Chance You'll Go to Hell: 46% |
| You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic. |
| How to make a sexybebehgurl |
| Ingredients: 1 part jealousy 1 part self-sufficiency 5 parts energy |
| Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add wisdom to taste! Do not overindulge! |
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i feel good...=p went to future perfect in alabang in line w/ my application for convergys. i had a lot of fun talking with the other applicants. we were indeed very lucky, among i think, a hundred applicants last week, only seven of us reached this far. i knew we were all deserving cos we worked hard for this. i wish all of us good luck. anyway, we were all interviewed just to assess how long will we take the english re-training. it's more like "kwentuhan" nga lang eh. im proud of myself coz i feel more confident nowadays. i'm not the same joan before na so timid / shy. i can comfortably talk to people from all walks of life. i'm not "ilang" anymore. i feel like i've come out of my shell. i enjoy my new sense of SELF. and you know what i couldnt wait to enjoy my life on my own: new adventures, new friends, new relationships! i know something better is coming my way..c GOD pa! i entrust my life to Him na eh! with what i've been through i know deep in my heart that God has reasons and that He has better plans for me. there were still times that, yes, i feel soo empty, soo alone, soo hurt.. but i knew that during those times God is just testing me, He just wants me to come to Him, tagal ko kase cia nakalimutan eh. kaya nga, i lift up everything to him na. *sigh* basta, i just couldnt wait for my life to move forward. i couldnt wait for God's plan to unfold. You know what i've realized after all? That i never lost anything, cos i know God will never leave me empty. just knowing that i have God by my side i know i've got all that i need.=p
ayoko na po mag-ingles!!! hehehe...
"if we lose something, we lose it for a reason. That reason might be hard to understand, but whatever it is.. we just have to believe that...
GOD TAKES AWAY WHEN HE HAS SOMETHING BETTER TO GIVE!"
ganun pala talaga ang life noh?! "you win some, you lose some." sabi nga ng isang friend ko, ang bilis ko naman daw nkarecover. pero ang totoo hindi pa ko tapos, lam ko iiyak pa din ako hangga't may galit at bitterness pa din sa puso ko. anyway, share ko lang yang quote na na-forward sakin ng friend ko, kase isa yan sa mga inspirasyon ko para makamove on. aaminin ko masaya ako ngayon. pakiramdam ko kase kahit may nawala sa akin, may dumating naman na i think is better for me. ang laki ng pinagbago ko in a span of what, uhmm, 2 days i think! pakiramdam ko kahit umalis ako on my own hindi ako nag-iisa. kinakausap ko kc sa isip ko c God. pakiramdam ko nga ang lapit lapit ko sa kanya. Siya din cguro ang hinihintay ko na magbigay sakin ng strength. natutuwa ako sa sarili ko--sobra! pakiramdam ko ang laking accomplishment na nagawa ko. nag-apply kase ako sa Convergys Alabang. one of the top call centers, i believe. kase naman ang hirap talaga makapasok dun noh! cyempre napasa ko ang initial interview & kanina was the best part of all. nalagpasan ko din ang Simulation Exam nila which i think is the most important part ng application sa kanila, den im off to my final interview. i was one of the very few na makarating sa final interview, marami talagang bumabagsak sa simulation test nila. *sigh* pakiramdam ko ang swerte ko! imagine, ang bilis naman magbigay sakin ni God. kaya nga im soo thankful eh..cguro eto talaga ang plano ni God for me and i know i just have to trust Him.
basta, ang sarap ng feeling. sana magtuloy-tuloy na!=p
so getz nio na kung bakit ayoko mag-ingles?! aba, nakakapagod na noh! panay ingles na ko sa convergys, give me a break! i might be doing that english speaking thing for quite a long time if i get hired noh! *wink*
wish me luck.=)
ang tagal ko nang di nag-update. tagal ko pala nawala. tagal ko pala nalunod sa kalungkutan. ilang araw, ilang buwan, sa wakas hawak ko na ang katotohanan sa mga palad ko. hindi biro ang sakit na naramdaman ko. lalong hindi rin biro ang dami ng luhang umagos sa mga mata ko. paulit-ulit kong tinatanong ang sarili ko kung nananaginip ba ko? paano nagawa sa akin to ng taong akala ko kilalang-kilala ko, ng taong lubos kong minahal at pinagkatiwalaan ng husto? hirap na hirap ako, halos hindi ako makahinga sa sobrang sakit na naramdaman ko. ganun pala un, kahit gaano ka kahanda sa isang bagay, hindi pa rin matatawaran ang sakit pag nasa harap mo na. gusto mo magmura, gusto mo magwala, pero...
"mahal na mahal kita. sabihin mo sakin ngayon kung paano ako magmomove-on kung buong buhay ko nakasentro sayo...hindi lang apat na taon kita minahal alam mo yan, ikaw ang lahat lahat sakin. paano na ko? hindi ko kaya... tatanggapin kita buong buo piliin mo lang ako... pls... mahal na mahal kita!"
hanggang sa huli ako pa din pala ang nagmakaawa. nadala pa rin ako sa labis na pagmamahal. ngayon ko lang napatunayan na nagmamahal ako ng totoo. nilunok ko na kase ang lahat. lahat ng HIYA, lahat ng PRIDE. ramdam na ramdam ko ang awa ko sa sarili ko, pero wala akong magawa MAHAL ko eh, kulang na nga lang lumuhod ako sa harap niya. Tsk,Tsk! Nung mga oras na un nasabi ko sa sarili ko at sa kanya mismo na wala na akong mamahalin pa ng kagaya ng pagmamahal ko sa kanya. Ang sakit sakit pala. Lalo pa at hindi mo inaasahan, sa isang iglap lang, sa isang pagkakamali lang maaring magbago ang lahat.
PAANO NA BA AKO?
paano ko haharapin ang bukas na wala na ang taong minahal ko ng higit pa sa buhay ko?
*sob*
to be continued...?!
i haven't updated for soo long.i've been too much of a lazy person lately. pretty much tired from mah daily ramblings. funny,how im still breathing.. :) *whew*
i finished my training today with a not so heavy heart. im kinda pleased that im done with it already coz as what i've said im pretty much tired already. so, in the next couple of days, it'll be hello REAL world. to recap mah last two days of training, it was soo much fun actually. for the first time in soo long, i felt like mah heart was on cloud nine. maybe, because of the thought that im open to a lot of opportunities now. yesterday, i went home with mah dad. it was hell of a traffic at alabang-zapote road. and this driver suddenly decided to cancel his trip & returned our money. luckily too, because i badly need to pee. :) so, my dad & i went to jollibee & we decided to grab a bite too. i loved the chicken torpedo meal. *yum* it was that day that i realized that i will always be mah daddy's little girl. it was that day too that i wished that i'm still a kid crying over a bruised knee rather than being a lady crying over a wounded heart. ='c
life's a bit tough on me, eh?! :)
